The June 11th ultrasound looked great per the doctor, so that was a big relief. I could see a head, forming limbs, the heart beating strongly, and yolk sak. So I have graduated to an obstetrician and my first appointment is June 25th!
I feel I’m in a sort of limbo. At only 8.5 weeks I could still miscarry, but there is a lot to do in preparation if it takes. I’m almost paralyzed about do I get started now, or wait until after the first trimester? I haven’t yet read even one page of one book on pregnancy or parenting. Normally I just move forward when there is work to be done, but I’m having a hard time forcing myself to do anything at this time. Almost like I’m trying not to jinx things (which is just stupid). So tomorrow I *shall* go to the library.
One thing I am really happy about is that I have at most 31 more progesterone shots! I had the doctor’s office do the first few and it hurt quite a bit. Then I went out of town and had to do my own and found it hurt very little if at all, so I’ve been doing them myself since then. After about a month I had an allergic reaction to the sesame oil and they switched me to cottonseed oil, and so far so good with that. I also found if I exercise before the shot it really helps – warming up the muscle maybe? Running works best for me, but since I can’t do that now I try the stationary bike or the elliptical. Even a brisk walk helps. Also a lot of rubbing and a heat pad afterward.
The nurse drew circles on my hips with a Sharpie where I’m supposed to give the shots, and now all my underwear have black circles where the ink has rubbed off! Lovely.
